As the title says, there's no escaping the situation! As soon as I leave the house to run some errands I am confronted with it! I say that because former 'friends' who drive past me give the most steeliest of stares now! Have you not heard? I am the one who is in the wrong. Their affair, was two people finding each other in a world that is full of so much pain and grief. We are to be thankful for that, so I am told! Myself, I am the scorned, mad and insane ex-partner who really '...should fuck off out of everyone's lives!' (my ex words'!). To be angry to feel pain and humiliation is just not on the agenda. I should turn my head away with grace and dignity and move on. Leave them be to get on with their lives. Hello!!!! as anyone who has been on the receiving end of an affair, to hear the above mentioned is enough to drive you well and truly over the edge! It is almost that your pain and grief is really of no consequence and that it should be shut in a box so that other people are not upset or offended by it!! Heaven forbid that I should grieve for the life, family and friends I once had!!!! Add to this the fact that the despicable pair live close by now makes my humiliation complete! Today is not a good day. I think running that errand and driving past a former 'friend' made me realise that pain and grief is not so far from the surface. I so wish it was.
...Why does the pain of an affair hurt so much? That question can only be truly answered by those who have experienced it, and as someone who has, I hope this blog can offer some insight to the agony that you are facing.