I have just touched upon a brilliant article by an author called Allana Reoch called Setting and maintaining boundaries for grieving. She brilliantly points out that part of the grieving process includes rage, which I feels goes hand in hand with isolation that one feels when they are grieving. I totally empathise with what she is saying and being a people pleaser too I know what it is like to worry about whether your pain and grief offends people. She is right when she says do not apologise for what you are feeling. They are your feelings and you are justified in feeling them. Spot on, Allana. You hit the nail on the head with this article.
Part of the grieving process involves a sense of isolation
...Why does the pain of an affair hurt so much? That question can only be truly answered by those who have experienced it, and as someone who has, I hope this blog can offer some insight to the agony that you are facing.