I have just been watching The Truman Show which is an absolutely brilliant film. It's visionary in the sense that it was truly the precursor to reality TV which is so prolific today. However, there was something within the film that truly resonated with me and it was the aspect of an alternate reality that involves you but you are unaware of. It made me think about my own situation and how the film reminded me of the affair.
So many times I remember speaking to 'friends' who were extra friendly and nice to me and whose smile lasted that little bit too long when I spoke to them. As it transpires, these same smiley, friendly people were the very ones who knew about the affair. Looking back and watching that film made me feel upset and disgusted at the same time. It's not far off four years since the horrendous discovery and I know had I watched this film any sooner on my road to healing it would have truly blown me off course for a long while.
...Why does the pain of an affair hurt so much? That question can only be truly answered by those who have experienced it, and as someone who has, I hope this blog can offer some insight to the agony that you are facing.