The sun may have set on a life you once knew but don't let that stop you from having a better life.
It is well into the summer holidays and my child is away with my ex and ex-friend! Grrrhhhh!!
I absolutely hate it knowing that she is away with both of them. I can cope with her being with my ex but with my ex-friend! I can't even begin to express how angry that makes me feel. I have truly had to bite my lip and try and put it out of my mind.
Therefore, with my child not being here I have had to keep myself busy. Work has been my main distraction! I do quite enjoy my job so that helps. However, with me now being the sole bread winner I am now more than grateful that I have a job. I won't moan about it at all. Without it I would be sunk. It's also made me realise that I need to be positive now about what I have and what I need to achieve. I need to buy us a home. How I'm going to do that on a single wage is going to be difficult but I am absolutely determined to do it. Basically, I feel I have no choice but to achieve this. I owe it to my child and to myself.
...Why does the pain of an affair hurt so much? That question can only be truly answered by those who have experienced it, and as someone who has, I hope this blog can offer some insight to the agony that you are facing.