The weather is lovely today. When I looked out of the window I could see that the sun was shining and that the dandelions in the garden looked so fragile and beautiful. A puff of someone's breath or a mild breeze can blow it clean away. I suppose looking at them made me think how fragile our lives are and how outside forces can come and literally blow our lives into different directions not to mention pieces. That is what the affair has done to my child and I. Which makes me think are we truly in control of our destiny? This may sound odd at worst but it is a strange thing for me to say. I wake up most days and the elephant in the room: the affair, is looking right at me! I cannot escape it. I go and make my morning coffee and it is crowding me in the kitchen, I make my child their breakfast and it follows my every move. Today, though, feels different. Maybe it's the weather or maybe deep down my psyche is working overtime to repair me.
I am probably further down the road to recovery than I realise and I am beginning to feel or see that there is some light at the end of this dark, dark tunnel. I have chosen not to return to my partner but if there are those out there who have been in a similar situation, I do recommend you read having a look at how to mend your marriage. For more information Click Here!
Dandelions: So fragile and so beautiful!
...Why does the pain of an affair hurt so much? That question can only be truly answered by those who have experienced it, and as someone who has, I hope this blog can offer some insight to the agony that you are facing.